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Friday, April 11, 2014


Friday already?

Happy Friday!!  I'm linking up with Lauren today for High Five for Friday.

one:: every time I attempt to clean off my desk, it just piles up worse than ever.  I actually didn't travel much this week, so I was holed up in my office at my computer more than the usual hour I regularly have…which lead to this mess.

two:: last friday I had the opportunity to tour a specialty pig farm… I have a full post on this soon!

three:: it's hard admitting this, but I'm actually starting to enjoy the solitude of my solo runs… I still have moments of struggle, but there are moments of clarity also.

four:: I had my first Lululemon experience… really bad, tremendously bad decision… I'm totally in love.  Can running tights really be this amazing?  And for no reason, other than I fell in love with the feel of the fabric… why do I love texture so much… I had to buy a running tank also.

five:: (excuse my manicure, top priority tomorrow).  We're doing pedometers as a wellness challenge at work.  I'm obsessed to put it lightly.  Unfortunately I also hate the thing because I almost never wear pants to be honest (no, no, I wear skirts or dresses!!) and it's so hard to wear the thing.  So most of my steps come from running.  But I just love seeing that number sky rocket!! 

I'm off to Chicago here in a bit to see my bestie :)  Fun filled weekend with Christina is just what I need.  Haven't been to Chicago to see her since I went last year around my birthday.

I hope you had a great week and have a great weekend!!

Always, J

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

My Relationship with Food

So I had a conversation the other day with a friend that made me realize how different my relationship with food is from hers. 

I suppose I've noticed this over the years from many many conversations with different friends because it appears that most are similar.  To be completely blunt and honest, most (and these are female friends by the way) correlate food to "how fat is this going to make me."  They struggle with the concept that food is comforting for them and in return, food will make them uncomfortably tight-waisted.  I have one friend who can simply rattle off foods and their matching calorie counts, which absolutely blows my mind.

My relationship with food is undeniably different.  

I have a love / hate relationship with most all food.

When I think about food, my only consideration is how much pain will this inflict…not how many calories is this, how much will I have to workout to counter-balance this choice, will this make me fat?

I could eat an entire bag of chocolate chips, I have no idea if that's 100 calories or 10,000 and nor do I care… but I do know if they are gluten free.  When I look at an ingredient label, I only look at the ingredients…at this point, after all these years, I couldn't even tell you what's listed above that… I've become completely immune to it.  

Some people find comfort in food… I find it terrifying.  Food is painful for me.  There's nothing scarier than "let's meet for lunch."  Sure… Where are we going to go, how's my stomach going to feel that day, is it going to be weird if I don't eat, maybe I can just eat a little bit, I guess I could cancel my plans after just in case, can't we just get coffee?

I just get exhausted thinking about food.  Maybe it's seasonal, or because I haven't been feeling fantastic lately, or because I haven't been cooking much lately… or maybe I wish I just had to think about calories.

Actually, no.  To some extent, I'm grateful my food decisions aren't related to numbers - that my choices are still about taste, and feeling, and exploration.  But I also wish food was more comforting.

I physically cannot keep pace with other people.  My celiac ridden body just does not enjoy food the way other people do… maybe I'm the only one.  I just don't know.

Why do we have such weird relationships with food?

I'm grateful food is my medicine, my salvation, and that I'm not reliant on drugs and chemicals to feel, to feel healthy… that I have some level of control over how my body will react to what I choose to eat.

But the constant internal food dialog running through my mind is getting old.

Can we talk about something else?

oh wait, this is a food blog.

Always, J

Friday, April 4, 2014

High Five for Friday!!

Wow, looking back and seeing my last post from November is a bit scary for me.  I have seriously been neglecting this blog that I love so dearly.  Step one: start blogging again!  I've heard on the "news"… aka. Dr. Oz, that you're suppose to start good habits on Mondays… oh well, we'll see how this Friday good start goes :)  So bear with me!

It's been a crazy couple months to be honest.  Here's a little bit of what's been going on…

one:: I'm happy the weather is sort of not really beginning to cooperate and I can at least attempt to [under many layers] run outside again.  I inherently hate the treadmill, dreadmill.

two:: I drive a lot, I mean a lot.  I average a good 4,000 miles of windshield time each month so I've learned to enjoy being in my car…usually on the phone or soaking up the silence. 

three:: I've never been big on doing laundry, well that's gotten a bit worse lately.  It's more of a quarterly endeavor for me… I hear rumors that some people do laundry weekly - wow!

four:: meeting are my life.  Work meetings, club meetings, fundraising meetings, meetings just to have meetings.  What are you doing?… I'm in a meeting.

five:: I decided on bangs for awhile… to distract myself while the rest of my hair grows faster… I think it working.

six:: when I'm not driving or in meetings… farm tours.  These are the best!

seven:: I finally have my home office set up… this is early on before I finished it completely.  I'll do a home office post here soon!  It's a love/hate relationship.

eight:: Cass and I before the Leprechaun Chase 10k… I love 10k's… and this is one of my favorites.

nine:: "spring" in Nebraska = calving season!  I got to sneak away for a couple hours for some family time with my cousin Calvin on a work trip out west.

ten:: meetings are great, but meetings with great people who care about the future of agriculture - that's what it's all about!

eleven:: I'm over the bangs.  But I don't think my hair is much longer… I don't think it's physically possible to consume anymore vitamins.  Come on!  Grow!!

twelve:: just a beautiful reminder… from a fortune cookie I couldn't eat… so ironic.

I hope you have been well these last couple months!  And I hope your week was wonderful.  I am back to blogging and can't wait to chat more soon :)

Always, J

Oh and if you're curious… I'm blogging about running temporarily on my TEAM in Training blog here: